I am in love with my best friend…
This is about me and my best friend. I met Kevin in September 2009, he was the shy and awkward kid who was so unsure of himself and the world around him, and I was just starting my life and overly confident and outspoken about everything. As we began talking more, we realized how much we had in common and our friendship grew stronger. By November, we were hanging out in town, going out with our parents, seeing movies, watching videos at home, and laughing about everything. We were really enjoying our time together, and I can honestly say, He is the greatest best friend I had ever had in my life.
By the end of February 2010, almost six months of him pursuing me, I finally realized that I couldn’t live without him. I wanted him to lead the relationship though, so I just flirted back and left as many hints as I could without being creepy. I had gone to New York for a Jesus thing lol and when I was there, I felt overwhelmed with love for Kevin, I knew he was the man I wanted to be with. He called me every night while I was gone, he texted me all day, and I loved it. That same weekend is when the Lord told me to join the International House Of Prayer for 6 months in Missouri, and I wrestled with Him and my own flesh about going. I told God that if He really wanted me to go, then He would have it all fall into place for me to go. Kevin was so supportive of this moment I had with the Lord
For those six months with Kevin, we learned so much about each other, we discussed our pasts, we helped each other through the difficulties we faced in our lives already, and we discussed the future, all of our hopes and dreams laid out on the floor I told him things that I had never been able to share with anyone else, and he told me many things which he was to afraid to tell anyone else. I learned to trust him, I learned that chivalry is not dead, I learned to love again.
On March 14th, 2010 Kevin was getting back from a trip to Florida, the entire time he was gone, we were both glued to our phones, texting non stop, I legitimately missed him, and I meant it, and I knew he meant it too. When he got back that night, we watched a movie on the couch, it felt as if time was moving so slowly. Nothing mattered anymore, just Kevin and I. When he had to leave we went outside and to the garage where we always hugged goodbye. The moon was full and bright, the stars were twinkling overhead, Kevin hugged me ever so tightly and I felt like I couldn’t breathe, next thing I know he’s letting go and asking me to look at him, I got completely shy and looked away towards the ground, he gently put his hand under my chin and brought my eyes to look up into his, he then leaned in to kiss me.. For a moment, I froze, I started over analyzing the situation and how I didn’t want to ruin our friendship, and that I didn’t want to hurt him, and all of these things that were causing me to hesitate, then I leaned in too. Our first kiss… It couldn’t have been more perfect, and nothing about it felt weird at all. it was pure and real love.
The next few months brought a lot of struggle, and a lot of things that caused hurt and pain, but we worked through every moment and are stronger because of it. I left for my 6 month internship in July 2010, and he was doing His senior year in high school. I missed him, and he checked out emotionally. He did things that he wishes he never did, and I wish I never had to stress over. We made it through though, so much stronger than before, and only because we had such a great foundation of friendship to fall back on. The Lord truly helped me overcome a lot of situations and hurt from my past, and helped me to understand Kevin as a man, and to work through these things with him. While I was gone, and after Kevin made decisions to better himself and get away from the people and situations that were tearing him down and us apart, he told me that he was going to marry me. I believed him.
I came home December 2010, Kevin gave me a promised to be engaged ring. And we set a date for our wedding, we began discussing our idea’s for the wedding, our idea’s on marriage, our roles individually and together, how we’d handle different situations with people and money, how we’d raise our children, and what our greatest desires in life are. We were completely inseparable We spent every day together, doing many various things and loving every moment with each other.
In June of 2011 Kevin went away to New Mexico for 2 weeks, 2 LONG weeks with no internet or phones. I was freaking out, he was in the wilderness hiking for 2 straight weeks for 100 miles.. I watched the news constantly, I received many hand written letters from him and he set it up to where I’d get a gift from him every day (So PS I Love You, right?) and it was amazing. I felt like he was still by my side rather than miles and miles away. I was happy when he came back, more confident in himself and feeling like such a manly man. He read “Wild at Heart” while he was gone, and man did it help him.
We have had a lot of trials, with family and old friends, and money and even with disagreements within ourselves, but you know what? None of that matters. Our love cannot be broken, and it’s quite apparent that it never will. Nothing can come between us We don’t care what other people say about us, because we know what’s true. My family and friends are 100% behind us and our decisions and that’s all I need to know.
Ever since I was 13 I prayed to God to ‘Not awaken love in my heart until it was time.” I prayed for a man that would be just like my Poppy and treat me how Jesus would treat me. And that’s exactly what I got. Sure, I dated other guys along the way, as I searched myself and went through my teenage phases, but all that matters is that I found real love, and it’s here to stay. Kevin is everything I’ve ever prayed for and hoped for in a man and I am so proud of him and so happy that he chose me.
We plan to be married on July 14th 2012. We cannot wait to be married, and to embark on this great adventure known as life while by each others side all the way through it. We have chosen not to live with each other until we are married, and although it’s really stressful and tough on us, we know that, in the end, it will be so much more rewarding for us.
Thank you all for reading the beginning of my unfolding love story